I am super, super excited to share the logo I had made for my children's book now that I've gotten everything officially registered. I knew that I wanted it to be clean yet also somehow whimsical and a bit "vintage" looking. I think the logo designer I chose really managed to do a great job with making all those desires come together in one sweet little logo!
Eventually, I plan to post a widget on my blog that will link to the website where people can purchase the book, buy CMK t-shirts, and also find out more information in general. I'm still in the goal setting phase for the official release date - and I'm not one for patience when it comes to something I'm excited about - but I'm trying so, so hard not to rush this process. I feel like God gave me this specific dream and want everything to be exactly like what's in my head...no corner cutting no matter how ready I am to get this ball rolling.
I can't help but think back on all those dark, infertility years of not knowing and pain and just plain hurt that God could leave me in the "valley" for so long. What was He doing? I was so upset at Him at times even though I knew better than, based on our history together, to question His plan. And then one day completely out of the blue, I get this call and my whole world from top to bottom gets completely flipped upside down.
It was like that with meeting DW, too. I had no idea that I was going to meet my future husband when I packed up a Uhaul truck and headed to Birmingham for a "fresh start". 500 miles and a few short months later, much to my surprise and everyone else's concern, DW and I had eloped. Single to married in under 3 months from the time we realized we weren't "just friends". Heartsick Infertile to Mother in less than 15 days. God seems to like to make me wait until I'm sure that there is no other possibility but for Him to do something miraculous and then WHAM!
Huge and amazing things happen. What a show off. ;-) (I mean that in a completely loving and admiring way, God. Please hold the lightning.)
I think of LC like that final piece of the puzzle that just made this entire crazy picture come clear for my life. She's not the last piece...she's just the one that finally made that picture start to make sense.
Being honest, I don't know what will happen with Custom Made Kid™ but the more I pray about it, the more I realize that the outcome doesn't really matter. I could sell 5 books, I might sell 5,000 but, as I remind myself daily, it really shouldn't matter. What should matter is that I am trying to be faithful to what I feel like God has called me to do in this season and whatever He does or does not choose to do with it isn't my call. Simply walking this leg of the journey like He's asked me to is all I have to do.
Instead of feeling vulnerable and desperately afraid of failing, I try to constantly think about the fact that if this book helped one family or one child by telling them (or reminding them) that God loves them and they believed it to the bottom of their hearts...then its successful. And that, my friends, takes a whole lot of pressure off and just allows me to let the creativity flow and lets this Dreamer dream.
I am completely (good) emotional and I feel like I have to say, from the bottom of my heart, Thank you! I truly believe that the readers who hurt with us during those dark, dark days of infertility actually hoped and prayed LC into our life and, in doing so, also brought this dream to life. Gah, this is embarrassing to say this out loud but I don't think of this as just "my" dream...I think of this as "our" dream. As in the people who invested in my journey and are still investing their time in reading and lift up prayers on behalf of our family and even Custom Made Kid™. Gag if you want to but I swear I mean it.
God has given me this incredible vision for Custom Made Kid™. It literally makes my heart palpitate when I think of it. It's not going to be just a children's book...it'll have super powers. :-)
Will you come dream with me?
Will you come dream with me?